I found myself today venting all my turmoil of University angst combined with sheer boredom at my parents. As I live at home, they bear the brunt of my mood swings. I never went through that whole teenage rebellion stage so I don't feel bad for the odd unreasonable angry outburst like todays. I didnt realise I felt so angry until I was asked how I was and out spilled a raging stream of how, no I was not ok, I thought I had bed sores from lying on the sofa all day and felt like I had cabin fever from being indoors all day. Of course when it was pointed out to me that this was entirely my own choice, that just added to my irritation. So, I find myself bored. And angry, apparantly.

I met a friend from University for coffee yesterday which I assumed would sedate my distress about returning to University but the endless babble of exam results, next years' topics and the first Union party only brought back all the feelings I have relished in escaping from.

I dont get it. Am I the only person to ever loathe University? As my friend enthused about how she couldnt wait for the term to begin I struggled to understand why you would want to give up the joys of holidays, travelling, freedom, London terrace BBQs and earning money in exchange for a grotty student Union and days lost in the stuffy library.

I'm debating what to do for the next few days. I need to decorate my bedroom. I've been collecting bits and bobs from all over in order to make my bedroom a little more inhabitable. Since I moved out at 11 it has become a dumping ground for anything and everything and becasue I've only had to sleep here a few nights it's never really mattered. But now, I need to make it more homely, more me. I am determined to have all sorts of trinkets from different countries fill my room. So far, I have a beautiful box I got from a flea market in Amsterdam, a delicate cream photo frame from an antique shop in Zurich and a small flower bucket from a local market near me along with a vintage looking map of Paris I want to frame and put on my wall. That will keep me occupied for a while.