Tonight I had to wave goodbye to one of my closest friends as she headed home to Australia as she recently lost her job that was keeping her here. It was just so sad. There's a group of four of us who were so close at school and out of all of them, she was the only one who was living in England this last year. With her being unhappy where she was working and me being unhappy at Uni, we both kind of relied on each other this year to keep each other going and we met most weekends in London (even though she worked in Birmingham) as we both miss it so much. I'm not sure how I'll cope next year with all my closest friends living abroad.
When I was saying goodbye to her, I was letting go of the last bit of my old life, the only bit that kept me sane this year. I feel as though I'm all alone now and with no lovely weekend escapes from Uni to London my weeks will drag in an endless blur from one to the next.
She looked so weary. I felt an awful lump in my throat when she looked me in the eyes with such sadness and said how she couldnt believe how different her life was one year on. So much has changed. 12 months ago she was about to embark on an exciting career in the company where everyone longs to work and now she has nothing but a plane ticket back to Australia.
The only consolation I could muster was to imagine just how different things will be this time next year. And then we hugged and sobbed.
2007-07-23 @ 00:34